NATALIE

monkey!

2006-01-05T07:20:57Z

happy 2 month anniversary with my cody

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BADEE BA DEEP!

i love you, baby!

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80 degrees.

2005-12-25T01:47:58Z

It doesn't feel like Christmas. I don't think it ever will until i have a family of my own. But i know that i will never be able to feel how i did when i was a kid. You know, where Christmas Eve seemed like the longest day ever, and no matter how hard you tried to stay awake that night, you fell asleep regardless, every single year. I miss that magic. Sneaking presents from the stocking, running into my room with Lauren, and stuffing the opened present under the bed before going back to grab another one that might be more interesting.

I miss the feeling of family. It's partially there for how much it possibly can be, but it's not the same. And that's what i miss. I wish this day didn't feel like any other day.

Anyways....

Three 5am mornings kicked my ass this week. But at the same time i got used to waking up at 4am.

Got a little Christmas shopping done. I wish i didn't have to watch my money, i saw so many things that i wanted to get people. I'm way too giving when it comes to money and presents. I love seeing the reactions that people have when they receive the gift. I dunno, it's a bad thing that i'm like this though. That's probably where most of my money will go in my life...

Jennie is an aunt! Her sister is gonna have a baaaby. With death, comes life. Life is strange...

The month of December went by way too quickly........ I am so in love. I fall deeper and deeper in love with my wonderful boyfriend everyday. Everyday is brighter because of that boy. Being in love is one of the most amazing feelings and i am so thankful for this happiness i am able to experience.

Christmas dinner party tomorrow. And then starts the brainstorming of what shall occur on New Years Eve...

Merry Christmas everyone.. Hope you have a good holiday and enjoy it as much as you can. I know i'll be tryin too.

faker

2005-12-23T00:43:33Z

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=34966226&Mytoken=130E0396-8436-567F-24385DC36698218E8142938

weirdos! yeah tell them to delete... ME. haha.

christmas is soon.
i came up with some money, so i can afford a few christmas presents for my family.
we have a big pretty tree and cody helped me decorate it.

nothing much else.
i'm never on here anymore. sorry guys.

shes_in_chanel @ 2005-12-19T00:48:00

2005-12-19T08:52:40Z

I am so in love.

I got my car back two days ago.
Then i got rear ended today.
Can ya fucking believe it? .....Rediculous.

Looking for another/new job. Either or.
I saw Rachel, Maddie, and Chelsea today, which definatly made the day 10 times better.

Mmm, k. I'm so in love. Can't get over it.
I bid you good evening.

shes_in_chanel @ 2005-12-14T14:30:00

2005-12-14T22:35:19Z

I love my Best Friend. She is amazing and last night was so much fun. I can't wait til i get my car back so that i can see her more and we can have more amazing nights. I couldn't live without her and our entertaining photo shoots.

I cut my hair last night. It needed it. I'm liking it.
I'm in love with my boyfriend...
And i'm so happy to be spending time with my best friend right now.

LIGHTS! CAMERA! ACTION! ...............

I LOVE CODY

2005-12-13T08:10:57Z

So basically Ventura County sucks and everyone inside of it and within a 50 mile radius does too. Minus a SELECT few. I can't wait to get away from people who have nothing better to do than keep themselves busy trying to ruin other people's happiness, way of living, or living in GENERAL. Fuck.

Made a new livejournal, just cuz i can't live without one. I only added a few people. It's friends only and this livejournal is no longer going to be detailed at all. So yeah, too bad for you guys. Severely cleaning out Myspace to make it useful only for keeping in touch with old friends. This whole me being in any topic of conversations thing really needs to end. I have too much other shit to worry about than hearing about people who can't keep their mouths shut cuz THEY have nothing else to do with their thoughts....

Whatever. Just fuck people.
I'm rarely ever online anymore.
THANK GOD.

and you will be a memory...

2005-12-12T12:18:23Z

Here are some pictures from my Grandma's memorial on Saturday...during the dinner afterwards. Cody and i were the only two to drink a little too much champagne. If you can't tell in the photos, we were definatly a bit tipsy.

It was my first memorial service. I can't say i enjoyed it, but i was thankful to attend because of how much my Grandma deserves such praise. The tears finally poured out of me, and i've officially decided that i will never be creamated. I will miss my Grandma so much... It's unbearable.

Thank you so much Josh, Cody, and Connor for joining my Mom and sister and i. You guys are the greatest and i'm so lucky to have each of you in my life.

Hahaha.... Cody, look at us in these pictures. We are adorable. Thank you for helping me through that day and night. I couldn't have done it without you. I love you.

you're my disco

2005-09-21T08:57:29Z

I miss being friends with ___________.
I wish that ___________ and i were together again.
I miss being held by ___________.
I have a small attraction towards ___________.
___________ really needs to get rid of ___________.
I miss kissing ___________.
I wish that i could hit ___________, ___________, and ___________ in the face.

Secrets. Secrets. Secrets.

1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind you of.
7. I'll then ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this in your LJ.

shes_in_chanel @ 2005-09-19T17:21:00

2005-09-20T00:23:26Z

you, you know who you are, have been so cruel hearted with things that you have said to/about me. it works both ways. because you as well, for a fact, have been very mean to me many times, more than i could be to anyone even if i tried. please stop thinking you know everything about everyone and their lives. i'm really curious to what i have done recently to make you have such a hatred towards me. but it doesn't matter, i think things are clear to how they will always be with us. i'll end this here because i don't want to be mean anymore, i don't want there to be anything.

to clear my head

2005-08-24T05:52:46Z

I've been realizing a lot of things lately. Mostly about people. People are definatly not who they seem, a good amount of the time. Some people i know these days are so fake and two faced, and way too into the drama for my taste.

"Those who matter wont care, and those who care dont matter."

Yet another phrase that is completely true. I have a good amount of great people in my life, and that number will only increase as i continue to meet more people, and sift out the bad ones. I have no problem eliminating the people that choose to take sides, say one thing and do another, and who just really need to grow up.

I don't care what people think of me.

But some things are said that i just can't believe people come up with. And so many personal things have been made into things worse than they actually are; some people just cannot be trusted. It's so fucked up how you try to trust someone with things and they just turn on you the second they get pissed off. Things have just gone too far these days.

I do not regret anything i do.

And i a l w a y s learn from my mistakes and go on with life. And concerning the tattoo, it's on my body because that is exactly where and how i wanted it. Twenty years from now, the bullshit that is going around will not even come into my head, because i got it for me and it had nothing to do with anyone else. I hate the drama that people love to create, and i hate when it keeps going. From now on i know to watch what i say, who i say it to, and who i let into my life. So if any of you want to judge, go ahead [and fuck off], but learn to keep your comments to yourself and get over the words and lies and bullshit and cruelty, it just leads to nothing but hurtful things that i'm sure no one has time for at this point in our lives.

I am not a bad person, and i don't deserve such fucked up things said about me [no one does], and the people who are real with me and real with themselves, and actually take time to not just listen to the gossip that goes around about EVERYONE, know that. And that's all that matters.

We are all living our own lives now, so can we leave the highschool shit closed up in the yearbooks? Let me live my own life, and leave me alone if you only want to start problems.

shes_in_chanel @ 2005-07-26T00:38:00

2005-07-26T07:39:37Z

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